9th Slime (IX)

“absence makes the heart grow stronger”
—— unknown auteur

i was sitting there and thinking about a quote from my favorite auteur, sun tzu. in it, he posited something that i found quite shocking. however, i digress.

what’s jaundice? well, i was going to the jaundice store but they were out of stock so i just ordered it online. and then don’t even get me started on what it is, because i already ordered it online.

that’s enough non-sequiturs. now, let me digress. lately it seems like the ocean ran out of water but at least people aren’t thirsty anymore, and the ecosystem is recovering quickly because of all the torrential rain. i keep seeing news reports about the weather because there are a lot of historical weather events, but it’s like, can’t anyone think of something more interesting to talk about than the weather? that’s like, the played out conversational topic. call me crazy in the comment section if you think i’m being rude. or just call me.

lately i’ve been going to the grocery store that’s a little further away because they tend to have food for more expensive, and i feel like it tastes better when i spend more money on it. it’s probably some sort of “psychological effect”, but i try not to think about stuff like that too much. i’m sorry, i shouldn’t say things like that.

but so anyways, the grocery store is a completely different chain that i think originates from the unoccupied part of the midwest because the building has a perimeter of about two miles and i usually run out of breath by the time i get to aisle 3. the deals on dust and rocks are to die for, though.

there’s an ambivalent nature that lives in all things that leaves us perpetually wanting and as soon as we have something, we find it unnecessary and trite.
oh my god, i’m so sorry, my friend grabbed the keyboard and was trying to troll me. i’ll--hey. i’m typing the things i’m saying out loud so you can feel like you’re part of this as well even if you’re just reading. hey, give me the keyboard back--no--

i think being oblivious is a state that everyone should aspire to. i’m not really sure why though. just sorta seems like it.

you know, i started this blog because it was just more convenient than having a physical diary, but now, people have started commenting on my entries, or sometimes even messaging me about it, which i think is awesome. i can’t believe something i started because i couldn’t figure out how to create a google account has actually started making me friends. right now, they’re just on the internet, but i like to imagine meeting them in real life, what it would feel like for Calamity444 and Turgid_Mackenzee to have skin and hair that i could touch. i mean, they’ve both said they wouldn’t mind being my friend and hugging me in person, but it’s still just so crazy to imagine. someone being my friend and hugging me in person with skin and pressure.

lately i’ve been staring at the sky more. my condition doesn’t really let me see the stars, or sometimes clouds, but i like to imagine they’re there, and i think i’m getting better at it. there seems to be a sort of arbitrariness to where we were placed in the universe, but sometimes, it seems to be the only place we ever could’ve been. i don’t know, i don’t really think about stuff like that too often. because of my condition.

my case worker told me that a level-up will be up for grabs soon, but i’m not really sure what that means. or when i got assigned a case worker. is caseworker one word? i refuse to ask slab.io this time. anyways my case-worker just sort of showed up in my e mail one day with a t shirt with a radical insignia em-blazoned on it that said “i’m in charge” and then a picture of the back of the shirt that said “of your case” so i guess it’s pretty official.

i guess there’s always more to see in this world, huh?

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